eyes barely open
finding comfort in your waking face
blonde hair a mess
sleepy eyes
still you are my midnight queen
hearts beating fast
in sync with one another
kissing
feeling
till sleep drags us down
light touch
running my fingers through your hair
dappled light from the window caresses your face
sun goddess
passionate one
who dares care about this taboo
right now
in this moment
you are my queen
blank pages await instruction
I have none
no feelings
no hope
no pride
drained and forgotten
used and thrown away like old newspaper
spat on
cried on
bled on
time to time I realize
I hurt myself more than anything
can't cry out in pain
that would make it real
if it was real ....
I would have to end
I'd need the darkness
engulfed in the peaceful nothingness
it is not real
no feelings
no hope
no pride
no tears
alone
left to rot in bullet proof armor
hiding in the shadows
weeping in the light
puppet strings bind me
cutting into scared flesh
bloody tears fall
staining the white carpet that was my sanity
minds ripped open in jealousy
hearts broken in silence
friendship shredded in blissful moments of lust
the only one to stay near
is the only one that does not care
each drink gives that much more freedom
from the attachment that is love
all will end soon
all will be alone
Like the broken doll once loved and then forgotten I am cast aside
thrown into a man made pile of trash I will not revel in the stench of memories lost
looking upon the broken and degrading ruins of times gone past
I forget
I let go
I survive
surprised kisses
trampled dreams
no one can hear a stifled scream
always wonder was it real
if nothing happened don't have to heal
hands wander and hands progress
unwanted touch
there's no recess
buttons break and stitching fails
tears of terror
air gone stale
disgusting movements
sickened dreams
no one can hear a stifled scream
I see you're threatening ignorance
and know your looming fate
suffocating over your negligence
breathing in your hate
here for all the good times
in the bad times disappear
covering you in your idleness
comforting you in your fear
all my cries are silent
ones you will never hear
everything is about you
the end of the line is near
I'm sick of doing things for you
suffering from non-existent tears
then when you hit rock bottom
I save you from your fears
She smiles without reason
thinks before she acts
has nice friends and family
always had good tact
she pushes away thoughts
they've no room to stay
so linger in her spirit
which is never okay
she cries at all weddings
and with others tears
but she doesn't know
she's crying her fears
she smiles with the sunshine
and dances with the rain
and with every step
is dancing out pain
she laughs the laugh of springtime
sleeps the sleep of dawn
but when sleep comes tonight
she'll see her laughter gone
Brown eyes full of darkness
weeping thoughts of gloom
sadness takes her over
they take her to her room
psych eval. on Mond
what if I was to say I saw through you
that I knew you where no more real than an old cartoon
that the stars and moon no longer dance in your eyes
you whose self worth is based upon how many women you shame
you who make me feel crazed
you who make me feel pain
you who made me feel loved
guilt proceeds me
I who let you in
I who let you down
I who was so naive as to think you were great
I who was scorn
I who has bled with fear of being alone
letting you touch me
letting you stay
forfeiting common sense
for the thought of being beautiful
out of control
out of my mind
out of existence
when can I disappear
I no longer wan
you can see me...
dancing in the joyous moonlight
in the wind singing of times untold
I am passion
I am pride
I am mother
I am child
I am love
warmth be to all my sons
sacred be all my daughters
my shroud of stars holds mystery
my veil of sun holds light
from the depths of the ocean
to the desert sands
each life is a child unto me
I who am
I who have alway
you can see me...
dancing in the joyous moonlight
in the wind singing of times untold
I am passion
I am pride
I am mother
I am child
I am love
warmth be to all my sons
sacred be all my daughters
my shroud of stars holds mystery
my veil of sun holds light
from the depths of the ocean
to the desert sands
each life is a child unto me
I who am
I who have alway
what if I was to say I saw through you
that I knew you where no more real than an old cartoon
that the stars and moon no longer dance in your eyes
you whose self worth is based upon how many women you shame
you who make me feel crazed
you who make me feel pain
you who made me feel loved
guilt proceeds me
I who let you in
I who let you down
I who was so naive as to think you were great
I who was scorn
I who has bled with fear of being alone
letting you touch me
letting you stay
forfeiting common sense
for the thought of being beautiful
out of control
out of my mind
out of existence
when can I disappear
I no longer wan
She smiles without reason
thinks before she acts
has nice friends and family
always had good tact
she pushes away thoughts
they've no room to stay
so linger in her spirit
which is never okay
she cries at all weddings
and with others tears
but she doesn't know
she's crying her fears
she smiles with the sunshine
and dances with the rain
and with every step
is dancing out pain
she laughs the laugh of springtime
sleeps the sleep of dawn
but when sleep comes tonight
she'll see her laughter gone
Brown eyes full of darkness
weeping thoughts of gloom
sadness takes her over
they take her to her room
psych eval. on Mond
I see you're threatening ignorance
and know your looming fate
suffocating over your negligence
breathing in your hate
here for all the good times
in the bad times disappear
covering you in your idleness
comforting you in your fear
all my cries are silent
ones you will never hear
everything is about you
the end of the line is near
I'm sick of doing things for you
suffering from non-existent tears
then when you hit rock bottom
I save you from your fears
surprised kisses
trampled dreams
no one can hear a stifled scream
always wonder was it real
if nothing happened don't have to heal
hands wander and hands progress
unwanted touch
there's no recess
buttons break and stitching fails
tears of terror
air gone stale
disgusting movements
sickened dreams
no one can hear a stifled scream
Like the broken doll once loved and then forgotten I am cast aside
thrown into a man made pile of trash I will not revel in the stench of memories lost
looking upon the broken and degrading ruins of times gone past
I forget
I let go
I survive
alone
left to rot in bullet proof armor
hiding in the shadows
weeping in the light
puppet strings bind me
cutting into scared flesh
bloody tears fall
staining the white carpet that was my sanity
minds ripped open in jealousy
hearts broken in silence
friendship shredded in blissful moments of lust
the only one to stay near
is the only one that does not care
each drink gives that much more freedom
from the attachment that is love
all will end soon
all will be alone
blank pages await instruction
I have none
no feelings
no hope
no pride
drained and forgotten
used and thrown away like old newspaper
spat on
cried on
bled on
time to time I realize
I hurt myself more than anything
can't cry out in pain
that would make it real
if it was real ....
I would have to end
I'd need the darkness
engulfed in the peaceful nothingness
it is not real
no feelings
no hope
no pride
no tears
Heartbroken Lullabye by sweetillusions, literature
Literature
Heartbroken Lullabye
Maybe in awhie, I'll see you there
You will be laughing, and I'll stop and stare
And I'll remember all the time we spent
The years gone by, all the time that went
It's been awhile since we've been together
I miss your smile and what we shared
But it is gone, and I'm without you
I'm so lost I don't know what to do
Do you not see me standing here?
I love you so but you don't care
This carelessness, has gone to far
My heart it breaks, when we're apart
And even before, you said good-bye
My heart it felt as if it died
Now I lay here... on the floor
Broken into two, my soul you tore
And now I'm here, quietly crying
Our love, it now
Can you feel the fire dying down?
The heat fades
But the burning is still around
Maybe on a better day
We could forget about our mistakes
Until then, we'll always have our say
Can you feel it?
The decay is here
Tearing apart our flesh
To expose our fear
Can you see it?
Our demise is here
Ripping apart our hearts
To expose our fear
Can you feel the fingers running down your back?
Like razors, they tear through layers
When they take what they want
They'll leave you with thoughts and scars
The fire burns to ash
All we wanted back
Everything we once had
Now smokes with the soil
While our flesh heals
From blisters and boils
As of today I have left DA. I'm moving where I won't have a computer let alone be able to afford internet. I'm to busy to keep it up so I'm leaving with what I came with, my poems.
Thanx to all, keep on dreaming!
Fröhliche Weihnachten
Felices Pasquas
Tchestita Koleda; Tchestito Rojdestvo Hristovo
Sung Tan Chuk Ha
Sretan Bozic I Nova Godina
Glaedelig Jul
Sretan Bozic or Vesele vianoce
Feliz Navidad
Gajan Kristnaskon
Ruumsaid juulup|hi
Joyeux Noël
Kala Christouyenna
Mele Kalikimaka
Merry Christmas
Selamat Hari Natal
Idah Saidan Wa Sanah Jaidah
Buon Natale
Shinnen Omedeto. Kurisumasu Omedeto
Cestitamo Bozic
Natale hilare
God Jul
Sarbatori Fericite
Pozdrevlyayu s Prazdnikom Rozhdestva Is Novim Godom
Noeliniz Ve Yeni Yiliniz Kutlu Olsun
Srozhdestvom Kristovym
Chung Mung Giang Sinh
It's the start of..... Snow Ball Fight 2005-2006 !!!!
One rule to this game....
You can't hit someone who has already hit you!
Now... go out there and get as many people as you can, before they get you!